Everyday is a struggle for Jaymie Polet, but Thursday was especially difficult.
The 18-year-old -- who lost her best friend, Meagan Toothman, and was herself seriously injured in the stage collapse at the Indiana State Fair -- found out the fall could have been prevented.
Polet remembers the night clearly. She was in the front row with her mother, younger sister, and best friend Meagan Toothman when the winds picked up.
"All of a sudden you hear like this big pop and I see it start to cave in," she said.
The last thing she remembers is Toothman grabbed her hand and then, "I woke up under the stage and I knew what happened, but I didn't want to believe it."
The stage broke both of Toothman's legs, tore her right Achilles tendon and fractured her skull. Toothman succumbed to her injuries nine days later.
"She was my best friend and she was more to me than a cheer coach. She would babysit us. She would go on trips with my family. I mean she was everything to me."
Polet is now almost fully recovered and attending classes at Indiana University in Bloomington. She is walking without a limp, but it's not always easy.
"Sometimes I'll just fall in the middle of nowhere or I'll trip over myself because I can't find my feet."
The huge scar on her leg will always serve as a reminder. The emotional scars will never go away, though.
"It sucks, you know, and like I try to keep my head up everyday. I try to go to school and act like nothing happened, but I lost my best friend," she said. "Every day I wake up and wish I wouldn't have gone. You know I wish that August 13 never happened."
She doesn't want to be angry forever, though. She wants to focus on the changes that might come out of the findings. She said, her friend Meagan would have wanted her to live a happy life.
But she said the pain will never go away and she wants everyone involved to know that.
"How would they feel if their kid was injured by that stage? How would they feel if their kid wasn't coming home again and passed away from something that could've been prevented? It's ridiculous," she said. "I wake up everyday wanting to text (Meagan), wanting to call her or you know, I get in the shower and look at my legs and it's everyday for me. It's not something that happened seven months ago. And it will never be."
Polet's family has filed suit, but she said, not for the money. She believes someone should be held accountable in some way.